新年快乐！

原以为今年的新年跟晚常一样回去马来西亚的kampong家喂蚊子。。。所以在出发之前，在朋友家待了凌晨三四点多才回家。。。跟diana聊了很多很多。。。但最终还是无法解决我的这道难题。。。

说到回马来西亚。。。当我抵达目的地的时候。。。我还真的不敢相信那栋刚建好的屋子是我的婆婆家，哈哈！感觉真的很好。。。房间也够大。。。蚊子也少了许多。。。

说真的。。。回去马来西亚就好比回去修养。。。无犹无虑。。。整个人也很没有压力。。。但是在那里始终还是惦记着他。。。跟堂姐说了我的感情问题。。。聊了一整夜，跟她说整个过程。。。他如何对我说过的那些话。。。最终堂姐对我说，“很明显的，他在暗示你啊！当你在暗示他的途中，他也在暗示你！” 是吗？真的是这样吗？我也好让我自己相信。。。但万一我和堂姐的推则是错的呢？可能他只是以朋友的立场而这样对我说。。。而不是在暗示我呢？

我还是不敢相信他对我有感觉。。。堂姐提出了两个方法：第一就是continue跟他做朋友。 第二就是对他说。。。 以我的个性。。。我当让会选则第一。。。也许时间会冲淡一切吧。。。

从开始到现在

曲名：从开始到现在 歌手：张信哲 专辑：从开始到现在

如果这是最后的结局 为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们告别了单纯
如果重逢也无法继续失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真是我太过天真
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能~
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人
如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能~
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人
拿什么作证
从未~想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱的深
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能~
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我爱错了的人

Feelings in my mind

Feeling emotional, restless, listless...etc...

Suddenly realised that I'm not good in anything, i mean everything... I'm use to be a optimistic person... even it is a really difficult problem that I'm facing, I will still look on the bright side... I feel happy too...

But now... I'm becoming a pessimistic person... not totally i can say... but it is a bad thing to become like dat... What exactly happened to mi... till now... I dun have an exact answer for myself... The only thing is I wanna wake myself up... before this coming exam... if not, I'm gonna destroy my own future... I had so many dreams ahead... I must work on it... the only thing i do not have is motivation...

In fact... I really need MOTIVATION so that I'm able to buck up... if not, I'm going to move on with my current self...

hAPPY bIRTHDAY mUMMY!!!!

Celebrate mummy's birthday yesterday... Actually wanna go to Meridian Hotel to have LUK LUK for dinner... but after we reached the place, then realised that the shop had already closed down.... So end up went to Seoul Garden to have our dinner... Took some photos there too...

Then we went KBox... sing till ard 2 something pm then went home... had so much fun there... The only bad thing is now I lost my voice... regret... Overall... its real fun... I really love my family....

Tiring Day!

Yester night didn't really slept well, coz in the middle of the night... I had diarrhoea... Maybe due to too much stress I have put onto myself...

Feeling more and more restless... I dunno what happen to me... I realised that I have no more time management... seriously, that is a very very bad thing... Because there is no time management... as a result, my schedules for this week will be packed... Haiz... who to blame? Of coz me! Never ever give a person a empty promise.... if not you will definitely feel guilty... My moral of the story will be dun easily promise someone...

Went to get my pay with Diana... then after that went to this tea resturant to chill out... I can say... it's so wonderful to chill out at this place... you feel relax... while you are appreciating rose tea and munching some chinese cookies...

It's a peaceful place... Will visit that place again soon...

Nightmare!!!

Normally after a nightmare, the moment you open your eyes, you will feel relieve that it was just a dream. But this time is different, I had a dream yesterday, I dreamt of the scenario of what happened to me, the scene is clear and I can remember till now. After I woke up and realised is just a dream, I do not feel any relieve feeling, instead, I'm so bothered by the dream. I really hope that this dream is not going to happen in real life. *Pray hard*

Happy Belated Belated New Year!!!

Change my blogskin again, this time, the blogskin is simple and nice. I do not want any fancy colour this time round.

It 1.45am, feel so tired... but my mind keep reflecting alot of things. Good and bad things. Well, after doing some of the reflection, I've decided to set a goal for myself. I need to upgrade myself in terms of knowledge, lolz, is not that i ahve little knowledge, but feel that reading books does help people to gain even more knowledge, shall visit Kinokuniya often or even library... haha...

Recall what i did a few days back, and I realised that I have been slacking alot, sleep late, woke up late, not a healthy lifestyle, shall adjust my time soon...